Pictures

Picture perfect women, splashed across the screen.
What makes them so much more than me?
The plastic smiles are more enticing then the
Smile I smile to see your face. You say it's not
That I'm not enough, but why then do you leave
Me alone to go to them. Your word doesn't count
When your actions tell the truth. You care more
For them.

Shine

Half a heart seeking the whole.
Born to love, taught to fear.
My time to shine shall never
Come. One long wait in eternal Night.
Who was sent to receive my
Devotion? My eyes are dry from long years
Of mourning. When is my time to
Draw near to Him who is my other
Half.

Writing

I once wrote to release the pain
from a thousand thoughts beating the brain
that God gave me to use to figure out
just what I'm supposed to do.

Then one day, it got so bad, I
didn't want to know what I
was going through. Blindly
moving through time.

Each new day thoughts cross
my mind and I wonder if they
mean anything at all. Knowing
how to live ain't easy. Not knowing should be a crime.

So now when my life is turning around again,
I hope to use this medium.
I don't expect you to know what I say
just know that where it comes from is real

I don't want for you to know
the pain that I've gone through.
I just want you to know, how much
more you can put me through.

Step aside, stand aside,
don't make me blind.
I know my own mind, I don't need you now.
You have no hold over me.